It's the time of the year! Chirstmas.
Lots of delicious food, turkey, lamb and seafood spagetti. hmmm mmm.
And a not so perfect dream about my idol. GAH! But she's so pretty and elegant and straightforward and and and everything i like about her. Except she went out of tune for one song. But still she and i talked and i got her autograph on my favourite shirt. GAH!
Oh man! I can't stop smiling when i think about it. GAH!

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i have two distinct sides of me now.

Cutting seems like the only thrilling thing.
A little nervousness and apprehension and more wondering.
I place my trust in her.
Though not many would like the new look, at least i'm satisfied.

First the ball lighting that burns buildings and almost reaching my house. This is due to reading sigma series.
Then to meet weird guys who ask for my number while on VACATION in taiwan. In which i played dumb not understanding chinese and not being able to speak either.
One more in the middle of these but can't seemed to remember.
I'm now wide awake and still feeling sleepy with 8 hours of rest.

To forgive doesn't mean to condone.
Letting go of the burden and the poison.
To forget doesn't equal to forgiveness.
I guess the reason she enjoys it so much is cause the people that used to be there are all gone. Though i may be wrong.
To overthrow someone, you need to be ruthless.